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06:55 Jul 25 2009
Times Read: 779

I just got done with a 3 mile walk, the first time I've been able to walk that far in 2 years. It feels good :) Granted my feet, legs and back feel like crap and I'll probably wake up tomorrow in tears but it was worth it. There's nothing I love more than taking a nice walk at night around downtown. The past few days have been rather hard at home so being able to get out and be with my thoughts was very pleasant.

23:32 Jul 22 2009
Times Read: 790

Ok so I live a block away from the local university (MTSU, 20,000 students) and it seems as though they're having some drumming competition or outdoor practice. All day long "bam bang, bodda boom" I like percussion, a lot actually but not hour after hour of pretty much the same few routines.

I wanna kill them! haha



Some good news, I now have access to 25,000 foreign coins. The owner is going to pull out all the silver coins and all the Europeans coins pre-1950 for me. As much as I'd LOVE to be able to buy them all I can't but if you'd like to have some let me know.

05:55 Jul 22 2009
Times Read: 800

How's this for saving the planet.



My local electric company is asking citisens to pay an extra $4/month for a 150 kWh block of electricity produced from renewable sources. Sounds decent right?



I live in Tennessee, I get my electricity from TVA (Tennessee Valley Authority). The TVA is one of Americas largest energy producers, providing electricity to parts of 8 States with a yearly revenue of $10.38 billion.



The TVA has:

11 fossil fueled plants

29 hydroelectric plants (via 46 dams)

3 nuclear power plants (6 generators)

6 gas combustion turbine plants



Their "green" power comes from:

15 solar generators (384 kW)

1 wind farm (29 MW)

1 waste-derived methane plant (4MW)



Now to put this into perspective the Kingston TN coal fired plant (the one that had an earthen dam break in 2008 spilling 1 BILLION gallons of wet coal ash into several tributaries of the Tennessee River), produces 1.7 GW or 51 times the amount produced by all of their green-renewable sources. That's just 1 out of 49 non-renewable plants.



Sure it's good they're producing green power but something tells me they could do a hell of a lot better than what they are.

00:09 Jul 22 2009
Times Read: 810

Grrr...

The nerve in my neck that's all mucked up is making the entire right side of my head ache. My jaw feels like it's being crushed.



My "dad" actually had something similar except it was on his left side. He had to have surgery to fix it and now there's a literal hole in the base if his skull only covered by a layer of skin.

04:22 Jul 21 2009
Times Read: 828

I am still so happy that I found that information and image on my eye sight (read the previous entry).



It looks like I've gained some weight back and now I'm at 125lbs :D



The weather here has been amazing! Highs in low 80's and lows in the mid 60-70's makes it perfect for nice walks.



I had a dr appointment today (nothing special just a check up) but I wasn't able to go because I didn't have a ride. It had to be rescheduled and now it wont be until Aug 20! Which does suck because I would have liked to have gotten some things taken care of, but I'll survive.



For whatever reason I haven't had the inspiration to do any writing, physics, poetry or anything else. I have thought about charging $1 for every question people ask me. They get information that would be uber hard to find and I get a few bucks here and there....that's fair right?



Oh, got my Nazi silver today..so pretty.

17:14 Jul 20 2009
Times Read: 847

Ever wonder what someone else sees? How they perceive the world? Well here is your chance. Please, read on.



It seems as though I have a mix of Protanopia and Deuteranopia to a lesser degree (aka colour-blindness). I've known for some time that I perceived colours differently and often mislabeled them but because I could see a colours constituent colour make up (such as pink, made from red and white) I didn't think it was real colour-blindness however, as time goes on and I learn more, things make more sense.



To give you a better understanding of what I see take a look at this image:

The top is what a normal person would see who isn't colour blind and who doesn't have chromatic aberration (failure to focus all colours correctly) such as myself. The bottom image is how I see the world. Little wonder why I have migraines huh? lol It also doesn't help the whole dyslexic thing either.



Now the amount of blur in reality isn't as bad as that image but it is pretty close. Imagine every object, word, picture, person having an outline like that, every time they move or I go from word to word I see the smear of colours. Makes life 'pretty' but not always fun.

12:10 Jul 20 2009
Times Read: 859

"How do you cap CO2 emissions? The same way we did CFCs." WTF?!?



Ok fine, except we don't exhale CFCs and neither does any other animal on the planet. CFCs, for the most part, are consciously created or have to be a natural product of specific chemical processes, CO2 on the other hand is produced pretty much anytime carbon is mixed with oxygen. Carbon, one of the most abundant elements in the universe and oxygen the thing that makes up 21% of our atmosphere.



Yes we need to lower our CO2 emissions but capping them will do nothing but wreck the economies of the world, force undeveloped and developing nations to remain poor causing them to continue to use CHEAP, AVAILABLE carbon sources for energy and so much more.



Putting caps on things like carbon, and others in general, is one of the worst things you can do for the economy, the people that depend on an active economy and the planet that depends on happy people who are able to use their minds to come up with better ways of preserving our environment without running civilisation into the ground.

00:49 Jul 20 2009
Times Read: 868

Once again the Sub-Tropical South breaks a record for low maximum high temps. Oh, where art thou global warming?





RECORD EVENT REPORT

NATIONAL WEATHER SERVICE NASHVILLE TN

520 PM CDT SUN JUL 19 2009



...RECORD DAILY LOW MAXIMUM HIGH TEMPERATURE RECORD BROKEN TODAY

FOR NASHVILLE...



THE RECORD DAILY LOW MAXIMUM HIGH TEMPERATURE FOR TODAY WAS 77

DEGREES AT THE NASHVILLE INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT. THIS BREAKS THE

PREVIOUS RECORD OF 79 DEGREES SET IN 1897.

08:59 Jul 19 2009
Times Read: 884

In my opinion the whole "third gender/third sex" subculture is utter self-indulgent, self-delusional, ignorant crap.



Transgendered people are not normal, they are genetic anomalies, sorry but that's the case. I am left handed blue eyed both of these are passive genes. I also have a medical disorder which many suspect is genetic in origin. What does that mean? That means I have genetically errors, I am not "normal" but I am also not some new type of human.



There are 3 types of transgendered individuals.

1) Those who are genetic defects (real trans. individuals)

2) Those who were abused and/or mentally damaged. These people need intensive and supportive help to over-come such issues and become the person they were meant to be.

3) Are people who are highly confused, self-hating and/or doing it on purpose for some other reason.



There is no natural, legitimate reason for a person to think they were born in the wrong body or to pursue such activities with the exception of genetic disorder.

Most trans. are people with severe psychological problems that have nothing to do with genetics. A minority of trans. are those who were born with a genetic disorder causing them to be born as a predominantly male/female while truly being the other.



This entire topic is very complected but the truth is if you are transgendered you are not normal nor are you a "new" type of human. Those born that way had no say in the matter and deserve whatever help they can get to make their lives better, but like I said before the bulk have major issues and are caught in a cycle of self-delusion brought on by abuse, their own thinking and/or promoted by a society that has no foundation in either ethics, morality, medical science or reason.



Now, I understand that "third gender" encompasses more than transsexuals but the general nature of all this covers all parts.

Slam me with "hate mail" all you want but it's how I feel.

22:30 Jul 18 2009
Times Read: 891

I finally got to sleep but it seems I was actually sitting up in bed asleep. So now my neck is positively stiff with nice radiating pains goings down into my neck, shoulders and back. Don't you hate it when that happens?



Edward Scissorhands was on TV today and of course I watched it. It was the first time I had seen it since the 90's. A nice reminder of the past. Now I'm watching a show about the Spanish Royal Family.

04:42 Jul 18 2009
Times Read: 912

Oh My Holy Lord God Almighty! I am eating Lavender chocolate and it is AMAZING! It's pure creamy chocolate with a mix of lavender and lime blossom extract, so bloody wonderful. It's like being at a spa but inside your mouth, down your throat and filling you up with all the goodness of the universe :)

07:42 Jul 14 2009
Times Read: 937

Ugh, I'm bored. Talk to me peoples! lol



Thanks to a friend on here I'll be getting a new coin. It's not the most rare or special but I haven't been able to get one in a long while so I'm uber happy about it, probably a bit too happy but hey I love coins! haha



I also bought the DVDs of Dune and Children of Dune. I have the VHS but this is 2009 after-all. I really love those films.

03:14 Jul 13 2009
Times Read: 959

Well I'm selling the rest of my foreign coins and paper money. It's about 250 individual items and they'll be split up into around 5 different types of lots.



On one hand I really enjoy things like eBay but on the other I hate having to write out specific details over and over and having a relatively small audience. While millions use eBay (and other similar sites) only 5-40 people actually view your item. I'd much prefer having an actual business with a website etc doing this where I could have ads, e-mail lists etc and not have to rely on someone else.



So here's to luck :) Now buy something people! lol

09:54 Jul 12 2009
Times Read: 977

Aww, AIDS.org took my advice for their website. Kewlies.

07:33 Jul 12 2009
Times Read: 992

I just made the most perfect snack EVER!!!!!



Usually when I make bacon and sausage I take bread and toast it in the skillet with the grease, soo yummy. Today however I was out of bread, so what on Earth was I to do?



I took a handful of multi-grain Wheat Thins and a handful of plain ruffled chips and threw them into the skillet with all that lovely oil. I left them in there for around a minute, stirred them about and then took them out and placed them on some paper towels to get off any extra oil and let em dry.



They are like small crunchy bits of Heaven!!!!!!



So freakin good.



It amazes me that I can eat and eat and eat things like this and yet still stay so small :) Makes me happy.



Now, go make you some and tell me what you thought.

08:41 Jul 11 2009
Times Read: 1,007

WOW talk about unexpected! I went to the local store to get a few things, walked in said hello to the clerk and she asked how I was doing. I told her fine then she said "I'm getting tired of people, they come in here and rob you blind!" So I simply said that I was sorry and didn't expect that would go on in the store (this particular one has decent security and is heavily trafficked) She went on to say "Well that's what happens when you get a bunch of them in here"



She continued with



"Stupid niggers, should drive them to the sea and let em swim back to Africa!"



Needless to say I was rather shocked at her willingness to share such thoughts with a customer and further shocked to find out she was quite serious. There wasn't much for me to say really given the situation so I paid for my things and left. If there had been other people in the store I would be sending a letter to her managers but since I was the only one there I won't. There are a lot of opinions that I don't agree with, obviously, but I rarely feel the need to get involved especially when they're not going to make much difference and coming from the cashier of a gas station.



Be it 1709, 2009 or 2309 some things never change.



At least I got my chocolate :)

06:09 Jul 11 2009
Times Read: 1,017

I was watching the movie "Philadelphia" and started doing some research on the history, sub-cultures etc of AIDS. When I came across an article on "Bugchasers and Gift Givers". I've actually met someone like that but reading about it made me just as sick.



A "bugchaser" is a person who actively seeks out those infected with HIV/AIDS for the purpose of getting infected. A "gift giver" is a person who actively seeks out those without HIV for the purpose of infecting them.



Many in the homosexual community have a sense of inevitability that they'll get AIDS one day or another so why not at least have some 'control' over when and how you get it. Some with AIDS seek out healthy partners to infect because they think it will "bond" them for life. Both groups tend to romanticize the disease in a similar way teens romanticize suicide.



Although I can understand their mind-set on some level (the way one might understand the motives of a terrorist) I still find it absolutely disgusting and sad. While HIV/AIDS is still highly prevalent in homosexual populations there is a 70% chance of not contracting the disease (using normal sexual behaviour which doesn't always include safe-sex practices). If you were to always use safe-sex practices the chances of infection fall well below 2%. (there is still a risk simply because condoms are not 100% effective and the potential for error after a single 3 month HIV test). (note that the risk for infection is the SAME for all populations gay/straight who are sexually active)



Anyway's I just thought I'd share that little bit.



Back to thinking about my tattoos :)

04:11 Jul 11 2009
Times Read: 1,028

I'm thinking I want a tattoo or 3. One of course an image of Dabbler being thrown over a fire :D



Seriously though, I think I'd like to have one that goes from my right shoulder and upper arm to my chest. Maybe the Blue Rose of Dalriada on my lower left abdomen and something across the small of my back. They'd be black of course except the Rose.



So much to think about.........

03:42 Jul 10 2009
Times Read: 1,051

So far 20,000 people have had a chance to read the letter/call to action I wrote about Michael Jackson!



I'm really excited about it :) If anyone is interested in helping out by sending an e-mail or posting a bulletin, tweet etc just send me a message.

05:43 Jul 08 2009
Times Read: 1,069

Oh stop your whining! You get so bent out of shape when a city pays for the security of Michael Jacksons memorial and yet turn a blind eye to $3 trillion in spending passed this year alone as well as "cap and trade" and idiotic environmental measures which will do nothing but bankrupt not only our broke nation but yourselves.



Do you know why LA had to spend $4 million on MJ? Because they have the legal and ethical responsibility to protect the 100,000 people that showed up. Never mind the fact that the Jackson family, AEG and others paid for the actual services, additional security and have offered to help the city out.



What happened today was not special treatment in any form. Michael Jackson gave $50 million to charity, sold 750 million songs, in the past week his website has received nearly 500,000 comments and of the 17,500 tickets GIVEN away some 1 million people signed up for them. He was more than just a pop star and he is perhaps the most famous person to have lived in over 1,000 years.



It didn't matter if they only held a private service for family and friends thousands would have showed up all across the city, nation and world. And who's fault would it have been if things went wrong with the crowds? According to some of you it would have been the families fault for not controlling the free wills of people who wanted to pay tribute to a man who ignited a spark in so many.



Look, no matter who it is, MJ or any other famous/important person whenever large crowds are expected (invited or not) it's the responsibility of the city/state to make sure the roads, buildings, and crowds are safe.



It can cost over $1 million just to provide protection, food, hotels etc for the President when he travels anywhere out of D.C for any purpose and yet you scream bloody murder when a city takes it upon themselves to help insure the safety of tens of thousands of people and the continued function of a million person city. (btw the GDP of LA is $698 Billion or 174,500x the amount spent on the service and receives $5.4 billion in taxes or 1,380x amount spent)



Nevermind the fact that all these visitors who were kept safe also infused the city and businesses of LA with $4-5 million in additional revenue.



I get that tons of media and taxes going to the story of a person like Anna Nichole or Brittney is rather absurd. Michael Jackson however is no Brittney. Today wasn't just about a man but it was also about the millions who loved him and the effect he has had on planet Earth for the past 40 years.



According to the law he was an innocent man and in the eyes of so many today provided an outlet and a connection for sadness and love and friends, family and a global community.



Michael Jackson's memorial service was a global affair for man who's soul and talent touched more people in his 42 year career than any other and a celebration of what he had created, literally billions of fans and the careers of so many who came after him.



So hush.

11:50 Jul 07 2009
Times Read: 1,096

I had a rather interesting 4th of July, or as my brother's wife called it "Happy almost-Independence Day". For the first time in some 30 years it rained, tons, and threw everyones schedules off. My brother picked me up and we grabbed a few fireworks (nothing like the massive shows I used to put on since we're broke and the weather lol) and went to his house. We had hoped the rain would let up some at least to let his kids (my niece and nephew) light off some things. The rain never really stopped. So, we started shooting things off from the kitchen and living room, filled the place up with smoke and had a really fun time lol.



I ended up spending the night over there which was fine I suppose but I didn't get much rest and when I woke up I felt my hips and back go *SNAP* such is life.



Earlier that day my biological father called and wanted to take me out to dinner (for the first time in around 3 years). I told him no. If a grown man can't spend more than a day or two with his only child every several years then he can kiss my ass. I have a very unpleasant relationship with my dad and I had worked really hard to remove myself from possible harm. His calling did nothing but bring up a lot of bad things.



My mom told me that perhaps he had changed and was truly sorry and that maybe this was the time we could build a relationship. I told her the way a person acts for over 20 years is the way they really are. Even being forced to decide between my own protection and my natural desire to have a father was a violation in itself and I don't want anything to do with him.



Today, the 6th, I went to the doctor. My grandfather took me and we talked more than we had in years, it was really nice. He likes to take walks but doesn't like to alone and usually he can't find anyone to go with him, I told him to give me a call at any time. My appointment was unremarkable with the exception that I had gained a few lbs since last month and that they finally seem to be willing to treat me like a legit patient and human and less like a cash cow. I got home around 1PM and slept off and on.



I just finished watching "Knowing" with Nick Cage. Personally I think they could have done a lot better but the graphics near the end were pretty nice and they used the story of "Ezekiel's Wheel" in a more overt fashion than is usually seen.



My usual schedule of sleeping for most of the day and being up at night is really starting to bore me and in a way it makes me feel trapped. One reason I sleep during the day is because I have nothing to do and no one to see so I sleep to keep from going mad. I really, really don't like it.



A few days ago I made a chart of all the narcotic medications I've taken. Since 2007 I've been on 8 different meds, most for pain. I made the chart 1) because I'm obsessed with numbers and 2) to keep track of things like pain intensity and tolerance. I was on oxycodone for 1 full year and had to increase my dosage 6 times! I've been on methadone for 8 months and haven't had to increase it at all which makes me very happy. My weight chart which I started a week ago hasn't changed any lol.



I really wish I either had a job or 1-2 people I could see every day or so. I haven't worked since 2007 and I haven't had even a basic social life since the middle of 2008. Not fun!



Well, I think that's all that has happened recently. Can't wait to get my new kitty :)

21:05 Jul 04 2009
Times Read: 1,123

After watching "Bridezillas" I am even more happy that I turned out gay lol. You women are nuts!

00:44 Jul 03 2009
Times Read: 1,132

Damn you AYW! Now I want to go prospecting!



I'm both a lover of nature and of nature's goods. As I was telling AYW when I lived in the country the area was known for both it's beauty and natural resources. My land had proven iron and nickel ore and had signs of petrol (and further down natural gas would come out of a certain river). Anywho I had tried to secure the rights to the property surrounding mine but it wasn't to be. So now I'm a little poorer and the land a little greener...I guess it wasn't a terrible trade-off.



I still have the first bucket of iron ore, you could literally take a magnet and run it across the ground picking up chunks of iron...pretty neat really.

23:20 Jul 01 2009
Times Read: 1,150

Being the insomniac that I am I decided to give natural compounds a try. I bought some Valerian root extract (100 capsules for $4) and took one about an hour before I wanted to go to sleep. It worked! lol



This particular root acts basically like a natural Valium and is used to help with anxiety and sleep issues. I don't know how it works exactly but I do know that it works and that's all I care about.



So if you have a real issue getting restful sleep and don't want to take an expensive or potentially addictive sleeping pill (such as Ambien) then talk to your doctor about trying Valerian root.



*It's important to discuss taking any natural substance with your doctor if you have any medical condition (including pregnancy) or take ANY medications as they can have severe, even fatal, interactions.